Video and Transcription by Fonna Seidu
How I work is create my passion then find the money – you know? Put my love into something and then find money because to not put my love into something is to give somebody garbage, you know?
My name is Huda Eldadiry. I am a textile and fashion designer my business is HELD by Huda and essentially what that is, is that I design textiles and from that create clothing or accessories.
I don’t know if I discovered it, I think it was just something that just discovered me – it was something that discovered me out of necessity. The textile design part, back in 2012 I just got terminated from my job, I was being assaulted, I refused to work with the guy and I lost everything. I lost my home, I lost everything and I was just like “I need to not talk to anybody, I need to not engage because I feel like I need to take this pencil and throw it or stab it into somebody. So let me take that pencil and wield it on paper.” And I created this textile that I ended up running down alterna fashion week in a 10-piece collection with 10-different designers all of us collaborating on one collection with PACT Fashions.
Organizational-wise is Sketch, Literature for Life, PACT Fashions – those are the organizations that I really benefited from. I love what they have and what they provide because it’s beautiful, right. I’ve been able to develop my skills and my confidence and my love for myself through going through the learning process and through taking advantage of what’s offered to me and stuff. However, what I’m finding is I’m getting really upset with the “what’s next” question and it’s not being answered. There are answers out there but there’s a financial tag stuck to it.
My biggest teacher is Amil. This morning I was talking to him and I wa spike “oh, I love you lots and I put my feelings before you.” And I caught myself, like “ah no, I don’t put you before me, I have to take care of myself first so I can take care of you.” With Amil, I learned how to hold myself accountable. Just the switch-up I had this morning with him, just saying no I was wrong, indicates to him (1) I’m human and (2) it’s okay to make mistakes but you just own up to it. There’s nothing wrong with making mistakes. There’s nothing wrong with accidentally hurting somebody. What makes it wrong is holding it to yourself and acting as if nothing happened.
If anybody knows anything about me it’s that I love sharing and I love bartering because at the end of the day if we build each other up, we build our community, we build our economy and that for me is the most important thing. That’s why I go to these workshops, is to continuously learn and continuously build my community.